Dear blog,

i really had fun last night together with high school classmates of paul, at last i finally met them :) it was just so nice that i was able to know them though i knew some of them already through their names only. everything went well and we all have smiles on our faces as we went home.

i miss you everyday we are apart. Every time i see couple walking together, talking and laughing while holding their hands, i wonder how would that feel if i'm with you at that time. when i'm eating alone or walking alone to my next class or going home to apartment, im thinking you're just beside me. then i'll grab my phone and text you how my day was and tell you everything that happened to me that day. but this little pain i have everyday makes me determined to do good with my studies. this pain pushes me to study harder because my reward is to see you every weekends i could. i know we can only be together every weekends but that doesn' t stop the feelings we have for each other. some people may say that it's healthy for a relationship not to see always. at some point that might be correct, at some point that breaks my heart.

i honestly do not know what to feel because i was busy writing this blog without the knowledge of my boyfriend though this blog is literally about him. i think he was a bit anxious because i was not replying to his text message when he was on his way home. i know it's my fault because i enjoyed blogging without checking my phone but then i can' blame myself because what i'm writing is about him. i'm actually planning to surprise him about this because he's not familiar with blogs.

GOOD VIBES! :)

i feel glad today because of new people who visited my blog! it feels so nice :) just to inform you.. this was an old blog, i deleted all of my posts except for my entry about my high school graduation. definitely there's a big gap on the dates of my posts here. :)

why i deleted? hmm.. i guess i'd rather focus now on the good happenings of my life. but this doesn't mean that i already forgot my past. my past experiences were already curved in my heart and shaped me as who i am now. it's just that i'm happier now with the people i trusted the most so it'll be nicer for me to share those experiences with you.

let's spread the love :) GOOD VIBES!

PS. Oh before i forgot, please take a time to feed my fish, just click on them to give orange feeds. Thanks! :)

everytime i read blogs about other people's lovelife, the more i realized i'm so lucky to have him by my side (hoho) :P im thankful for not experiencing any worries or headaches a boyfriend can give. and if ever there will be, i know he will be the first to know it. that's why we seldom fight and most of the time it's not a big fight, just a simple misunderstanding. he makes sure that before the day ends everything is settled. we just love to laugh and be happy together. :) we are on a long-distance-relationship. we see each other only on weekends and sometimes twice in two weeks. cellphone has been our best friend for the longest time. everyday is a struggle not to look for him physically especially if you're surrounded with sweet couples. that's why if you and your boyfriend are always together, treasure it! because not all couple are blessed to see, talk, care for each other personally. do not waste your time fighting over small things, act like mature people because it takes two grown ups to build a strong relationship.

I love Paul :) He always make me happy every time i am not ok. He makes sure that he's able to make me laugh before our conversation ends no matter how broken i am. I just love his humor. It never fails to make me feel relieved. Iloveyou!

love love love :)

These are some of the reasons why i admire my paul :)

• God fearing. I admire his faith to God, he's even more religious than me. He is the one who's always telling me to have faith. He goes to church every Sunday and tells me that i am always included in his prayers
• Selfless. he helps his family in all aspects either financially, emotionally etc.
• Loving son. he has a BIG respect for his parents. he actually can't resist the request of his mom. He's so thankful with the way his dad raised them.
• i learned from him a lot. he's actually my adviser in all sorts of problems. since he's older than me, he has more experiences that can relate to my situation.
• sense of humor. he is really a joker. i mean every time we we're together the feeling is so easy, we can laugh about anything. he knows his punchline.
• listener. he's a kind of person whom i can tell everything, every random thoughts that cross my mind. we can talk even the most boring subject.
• we can be together any time of the day even without taking a bath. we're that comfortable with each other. we're not that conscious with ourselves because we're already happy with the thought of being together.
• his fetish is underarm -___- hahaha. he likes kissing and touching my armpit, i don't know why >.<
• he plays basketball well(according to his friends). how i wish i can see him play basketball :(
• he drives me home. this is one asset of him that i am proud of. he drives car recklessly.. JOKE hahaha. a good racer i guess :P
• mature. he acts maturely. we don't fight over small things. if there's any misunderstanding, sincere explanation is all he need to be okay.
• understanding all the way, especially to my priorities in life. he's hands off with regards to my career because according to him, we already have our career even before we met each other and lovelife is just a spice of life.
• he's sweet! definitely. i wake up everyday with a good morning message from him and i got good night message before i go to sleep. he updates me any where he goes whether i have load or none. he fulfills what's missing with me.
• he surprises me :) 1st surprise was on valentine's day. Lbc package arrived at our home and it was from him.. so sweet! :) he told me that because of his work, he can't personally see me so he made a way to make me feel the valentine's season.
• we both love to eat! >.< no doubt that after i met him, i started gaining weight for almost 4 kilos :(
• he doesn't want me to keep on complaining so he will do everything to fix it. for example, if i'm hugry, he'll buy something to eat the he knows i like; it's very hot, he will find a way to find fan, or any source of air.
• very hardworking. i salute him for his passion to his job.
• he knows to manage his time on work, family, friends, and relationship.
• my support system. he knows how to uplift me every time i'm down.
• he does not smoke. :) only few men can live without smoking. this is one of his great assets. one of my priorities is my health and the health of my partner.

my boyfriend is not perfect. nobody was. there were also shortcomings but i'd rather focus on the good side because that's also how he look at me. we are here not to love the perfect persons but to love the imperfect ones, perfectly. i love you paul! :)

The best is yet to come..♥

*phone beeped @11pm

1 message received...(show)

"Good evening.ü" - unknown number

tomorrow morning.. Good morning.ü -unknown number again

this time I replied..

That was December 8, 2010, feast of Immaculate Conception and also the day when heaven permitted me to meet the man of my dreams. He is Paul. I still remember when i used to call him kuya Paul because he's four years older than me.. we became textmates though he was the best friend of my roommate then. Actually Paul is not new to me. I already knew him even before but not that long and some stories about him but he doesn't know me at all. He told me that he saw my FB account so he asked for my number from my roommate. and as i remembered, may profile picture then was not that beautiful except for that big smile i had as i stood beside the snowman :)

i never expect to see myself as a cellphone addict because im not so used at texting. i didn't know why i keep on replying to his text messages. i didn't know why im so eager to know everything about him. i didn't know why i have this pretty smile on my face everytime my phone beeped. i didn't know why i feel sad when he's not replying and when i have no load to reply to him. it felt weird at that time because i didn't expect that it will be eventually a part of my routine. even just through text, i can feel his sincerity to me. he always check how's my day going, he is a friend to me.

January 15, 2011, our first meeting.

i must admit that my heart was beating so fast back then that i thought it will explode. my body was wet with sweat. i became so conscious with my appearance. every action counts. my cheeks blushed for no reason. the feeling that i wished the earth's crust must have eaten me. i was so nervous!! never then i knew he was feeling the same way too :)))) we were uneasy at first.. actually the whole day. haha. it was really hard for us to act normally because we're too shy.

january 22, 2011, the chase

eversince then, every weekends, he made it to a point that he was able to visit me at our house. i just admire his effort that despite the distance between our houses, he didn't mind going home almost late at night just to be with me and my family the whole day. what could i ask for?

march 11, 2011, this is it.

he kneeled in front of me saying my whole name and asking me if i can be his girlfriend. i was close to tear at that time and without any doubt i answered him YES :) best day of his life? bestest of the best for me :)

so our journey together begins...

(actually, there were so may events i haven't included here because im so overwhelmed with kilig everytime i remember how we started.. :P )